“Imagine a monster puzzle in life that you worked 5 decades putting together without any life skills to start with, a survival mindset. I felt like that “Naked and Afraid” reality show, but on my own, no company, too scared to ask for help, and no moral compass. Think of the wonder of finding that last piece of the puzzel and how profoundly impactful it can be in the later years of one’s life, or anytime for that matter. I never felt this until now. I always wondered why Judy loved puzzles. I love watching her, the patience, focus, and mindfulness attention. I could never do that. Now I know why. My mind was wired for fear from a sickness I never knew about until 30 years later from this moment. Icicle Valley was God’s fork in the road for the Sparks family. Yes! I see this now, and feel it too…”
It gives me huuge joy to share the above excerpt from my new memoir, a work in progress. I just finished a draft of Chapter I! The spirits and my creative juices are flowing and my soul is hungry for spiritual growth. All the angels in my life have gathered and encouraged me to write, and do it now. The words flow from my heart and the deepest places of my soul. I will share excerpts from each new chapter in the coming weeks and months.
I want to engage my friends and colleagues while writing this profoundly touching journey of love and healing for my family. I published my first memoir, Reconciliation, a Son’s Story in 2011 and launched my website Children and Families in Life After Trauma at the same time.
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I will not pretend to be a subject matter expert in psychiatry, science, or medicine. I’m proud and privileged to be a survivor of childhood and young adult trauma, abuse and maltreatment. I suffer from a life long mental illness, ‘acute agitated depressive disorder’. As a lay person I help others as a peer, friend and colleague. My work is about community building and healing as a broader collaboration of stakeholders, partners and consumers with a common mission.
My healing journey has indeed entered a spiritual phase now that I feel truly safe. A gift of the spirit life at this time of my life draws me closer to God. I never felt peace of mind until now. It’s a deep feeling in my soul that moves me to a more peaceful place.
My soul is speaking to me. Think it’s a ‘coming home’ feeling in this 30th year of my journey to reconnect my lost soul. You get this, I know.”
