Combat veterans and others who suffer from extreme guilt must forgive themselves as a first step to healing.

by | May 5, 2012

In the essay, Thinking and Feeling About Forgiveness, by Howard Lipke, phD, 10/1/09, the following quote is extremely helpful in understanding how overwelming guilt and resistance to self forgiveness can backfire.  The complete word document can be found at,  
“In discussing self forgiveness it is important to consider that the self punishment of always feeling guilty, which I define as anger at yourself, usually backfires. People can take only so much of this and then start to get angry and turn the blame back on others. A difficult alternative to constant self blame would be leading your life differently, being more careful, building positive habits. This is usually more difficult for people than feeling bad[1].  Which is why people so often punish themselves by feeling bad and screwing up their lives, than by making changes of habits and forgiving. The feeling bad seems to never go away, partly because depriving yourself of pleasure, or hurting yourself, does not usually make things even.  It actually makes the-thing-you-did-that-you-think-you-have-to-punish-yourself-for worse, by depriving everyone of your potential to learn from what happened, reconnect, and do good.”

[1]Part of the difficulty is that people sometimes lose faith that the work toward change will succeed.
In my book, Reconciliation: A Son’s Story, much is written about the challenge of guilt and self forgiveness.  I discovered the reality self forgiveness for the first time while doing research and writing my book.  Even more important is that by forgiving myself first from the trauma experienced as a child, I was then able to forgive my family, especially Dad.  Now I know what he was experiencing with the constant feelings of guilt from extended combat during WWII.  I don’t know for sure if Dad ever reached the point of  complete self forgiveness, but he did seem to be more at peace later in life once he was getting appropriate psychotherapy treatment and medications to help.  But his guilt from experiencing severe trauma during WWII was clearly a life long challenge.
Steve Sparks
Reconciliation: A Son’s Story

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Steve Sparks is a retired information technology sales and marketing executive with over 35 years of industry experience, including a Bachelors’ in Management from St. Mary’s College. His creative outlet is as a non-fiction author, writing about his roots as a post-WWII US Navy military child growing up in the 1950s-1960s.
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