“Finding My Soul in Icicle Valley, Chapter 1, excerpt 3…

“But I couldn’t take living in the moment, and didn’t know how. I was sick and didn’t know it then. Most troubling is I never knew why. I only knew flight/flight 24/7 alert and wanted to run after something that was never out there. More stuff to prove that I could show my father and the whole world that a ‘kid kicked to the curb’ could make it in the world if I took ownership of the universe, I alone could do it, I alone. I already showed the world this…why would I want to go right back out there and do it over and over again?”

Steve Sparks, Author, Blogger, & Mental Health Advocate. Tap my photo click here for Steve’s author page. c1990 Icicle Valley near Leavewnworth, Wa click. We found home at last!

It gives me huuge joy to share the following excerpt from my new memoir, a work in progress. I just finished a draft of Chapter I! The spirits and my creative juices are flowing and my soul is hungry for spiritual growth. All the angels in my life have gathered and encouraged me to write, and do it now. The words flow from my heart and the deepest places of my soul. I will share excerpts from each new chapter in the coming weeks and months.

I want to engage my friends and colleagues while writing this profoundly touching journey of love and healing for my family. I published my first memoir, Reconciliation, a Son’s Story in 2011 and launched my website Children and Families in Life After Trauma at the same time.

Please forward your comments of support and feedback to me… stevesparks.associates@survivethriveptsd.org

I will not pretend to be a subject matter expert in psychiatry, science, or medicine. I’m proud and privileged to be a survivor of childhood and young adult trauma, abuse and maltreatment. I suffer from a life long mental illness, ‘acute agitated depressive disorder’. As a lay person I help others as a peer, friend and colleague. My work is about community building and healing as a broader collaboration of stakeholders, partners and consumers with a common mission.

My healing journey has indeed entered a spiritual phase now that I feel truly safe. A gift of the spirit life at this time of my life draws me closer to God. I never felt peace of mind until now. It’s a deep feeling in my soul that moves me to a more peaceful place.

My soul is speaking to me. Think it’s a ‘coming home’ feeling in this 30th year of my journey to reconnect my lost soul. You get this, I know.”

21st Century Community Building in Depoe Bay, Oregon…where all citizens can make a difference…

Depoe Bay Harbor…Summer on the beautiful Oregon Coast…

Depoe Bay City Council with Mayor A.J. Mattila …center…click for larger view…


News from my hometown, Depoe Bay, Oregon  Quote from the News Lincoln County article…

A way forward on harbor issues –

“Depoe Bay City Councilors, noting that plans to upgrade The World’s Smallest Harbor were going too slowly, decided to initiate a “Harbor Summit” to speed things up. They decided that attending that summit will be the Harbor Commission, the Harbor Master Plan Committee, and the City Council. Several councilors cited what appeared to be irreconcilable differences between members of the two harbor committees, something the city council wants to resolve. The council decided on the summit in order to get everyone around the same table and map out what the council believes are the three biggest issues – the need for new dock pilings, new docks in positions 2, 3 and 4 and improvements to the harbor’s fuel dock.


I love talking about my hometown, Depoe Bay, Oregon!  Judy and I moved to the Oregon Coast almost 10 years ago and have not looked back.  We’ve been blessed to have lived and experienced rural America, including Leavenworth, Washington for the past 25 years.  Smaller communities offer the experience and culture of volunteerism and community service where all citizens can take ownership and make a difference.  If your heart moves you in later life when there is more time to give back, a rural community offers great opportunity and potential to use wisdom and career skill sets to make a positive impact for the greater good.

Judy and I discovered the “magic” of small town living back in 1991 when we left the stressful life of the big city and a world of a high intensity career that became a “burn-out” by the time we reached our 40’s.  We found our dream first in the mountains of Leavenworth, Washington in the north central part of the region.  This is where we fell in love with small town America and the heartfelt rewards of community service.  Now we enjoy an even greater love for giving back living on the stunning Oregon Coast in Depoe Bay, “The Smallest Navigable Harbor in the World.”  We also love the diversified culture of townsfolk, neighbors, and friends who built this community and those who came here later in life like us.  We are all one family thinking and focusing on a better future for our children and grandchildren.  We all play a part in making a difference while enjoying the treasured and unique experience of living in a coastal community.

We explore the coastal beaches, including our own backyard in Little Whale Cove, with every free moment.  The pounding waves at night put us to sleep.  The mild temperate climate is never too hot or too cold.  The sunny warm days of summer and a break from the rain from winter months make this a paradise we truly appreciate.  The winter storms are amazing to experience and sometimes create a little anxiety when occasionally, winds reach 100 mph on the coast.  We are happy to part of positive human connectedness and spiritual growth in our hometown of Depoe Bay, Oregon…  Please come to the Central Oregon Coast and experience the gift of a natural earth energy vortex…food for your soul!

Steve Sparks, Author, Reconciliation: A Son’s Story and My Journey of Healing in Life After Trauma, Part 1…  Click on the highlighted text for my author page…

Councilor, City of Depoe Bay, Oregon