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“Finding My Soul in Icicle Valley, Chapter 1, excerpt 3…

“But I couldn’t take living in the moment, and didn’t know how. I was sick and didn’t know it then. Most troubling is I never knew why. I only knew flight/flight 24/7 alert and wanted to run after something that was never out there. More stuff to prove that I could show my father and the whole world that a ‘kid kicked to the curb’ could make it in the world if I took ownership of the universe, I alone could do it, I alone. I already showed the world this…why would I want to go right back out there and do it over and over again?”

Steve Sparks, Author, Blogger, & Mental Health Advocate. Tap my photo click here for Steve’s author page. c1990 Icicle Valley near Leavewnworth, Wa click. We found home at last!

It gives me huuge joy to share the following excerpt from my new memoir, a work in progress. I just finished a draft of Chapter I! The spirits and my creative juices are flowing and my soul is hungry for spiritual growth. All the angels in my life have gathered and encouraged me to write, and do it now. The words flow from my heart and the deepest places of my soul. I will share excerpts from each new chapter in the coming weeks and months.

I want to engage my friends and colleagues while writing this profoundly touching journey of love and healing for my family. I published my first memoir, Reconciliation, a Son’s Story in 2011 and launched my website Children and Families in Life After Trauma at the same time.

Please forward your comments of support and feedback to me… stevesparks.associates@survivethriveptsd.org

I will not pretend to be a subject matter expert in psychiatry, science, or medicine. I’m proud and privileged to be a survivor of childhood and young adult trauma, abuse and maltreatment. I suffer from a life long mental illness, ‘acute agitated depressive disorder’. As a lay person I help others as a peer, friend and colleague. My work is about community building and healing as a broader collaboration of stakeholders, partners and consumers with a common mission.

My healing journey has indeed entered a spiritual phase now that I feel truly safe. A gift of the spirit life at this time of my life draws me closer to God. I never felt peace of mind until now. It’s a deep feeling in my soul that moves me to a more peaceful place.

My soul is speaking to me. Think it’s a ‘coming home’ feeling in this 30th year of my journey to reconnect my lost soul. You get this, I know.”

"Finding My Soul in Icicle Valley" Chapter 2, excerpt… Conquering fear of God…

Eskimo Kisses in Stehekin, celebrating 30 years of our spiritual journey as a family… Steve & Judy Sparks 2018

Religous Abuse as a reference, click here… “Child Protection and Cults”

“I have been in denial about religous abuse for most of my life until now, age 73. I can’t say why it took do long to revisit this very important life changing factor in my religious upbringing. I feel the freedom of the challenges of my spirit life now. It is never too late to find renewed faith. It’s hard work, especially when there is so much trash to empty…”

It gives me huuge joy to share the above excerpt from my new memoir, a work in progress. I just finished a draft of Chapter I! The spirits and my creative juices are flowing and my soul is hungry for spiritual growth. All the angels in my life have gathered and encouraged me to write, and do it now. The words flow from my heart and the deepest places of my soul. I will share excerpts from each new chapter in the coming weeks and months.

I want to engage my friends and colleagues while writing this profoundly touching journey of love and healing for my family. I published my first memoir, Reconciliation, a Son’s Story in 2011 and launched my website Children and Families in Life After Trauma at the same time.

Please forward your comments of support and feedback to me… stevesparks.associates@survivethriveptsd.org

My healing journey has indeed entered a spiritual phase now that I feel truly safe. A gift of the spirit life at this time of my life draws me closer to God. I never felt peace of mind until now. It’s a deep feeling in my soul that moves me to a more peaceful place.

My soul is speaking to me. Think it’s a ‘coming home’ feeling in this 30th year of my journey to reconnect my lost soul. You get this, I know.”

Steve Sparks, Author, Blogger, Mental Health Advocate click here for my author page

Finding My Soul in Icicle Valley Chapter I excerpt2

Steve Sparks, Author, Blogger, & Mental Health Advocate. Tap my photo

It gives me huuge joy to share the following excerpt from my new memoir, a work in progress. I just finished a draft of Chapter I! The spirits and my creative juices are flowing and my soul is hungry for spiritual growth. All the angels in my life have gathered and encouraged me to write, and do it now. The words flow from my heart and the deepest places of my soul. I will share excerpts from each new chapter in the coming weeks and months.

I want to engage my friends and colleagues while writing this profoundly touching journey of love and healing for my family. I published my first memoir, Reconciliation, a Son’s Story in 2011 and launched my website Children and Families in Life After Trauma at the same time.

Please forward your comments of support and feedback to me… stevesparks.associates@survivethriveptsd.org

I will not pretend to be a subject matter expert in psychiatry, science, or medicine. I’m proud and privileged to be a survivor of childhood and young adult trauma, abuse and maltreatment. I suffer from a life long mental illness, ‘acute agitated depressive disorder’. As a lay person I help others as a peer, friend and colleague. My work is about community building and healing as a broader collaboration of stakeholders, partners and consumers with a common mission.

My healing journey has indeed entered a spiritual phase now that I feel truly safe. A gift of the spirit life at this time of my life draws me closer to God. I never felt peace of mind until now. It’s a deep feeling in my soul that moves me to a more peaceful place.

My soul is speaking to me. Think it’s a ‘coming home’ feeling in this 30th year of my journey to reconnect my lost soul. You get this, I know.”

From Chapter I…

“It was never enough. It’s exhausting to have a 24/7 racing mind and negative self talk. I never stopped thinking about the next move. It was sick, and obsessive behavior as I think back to that time. I behaved as a ‘self serving’ bully at times when anything got in my way. I didn’t know yet that I was sick, and didn’t want to.”

Leavenworth, Wa

Finding My Soul in Icicle Valley… Chapter I…excerpt

Steve Sparks, Author, Blogger, & Mental Health Advocate. Tap my photo

It gives me huuge joy to share the following excerpt from my new memoir. I just finished a draft of Chapter I! The spirits and my creative juices are flowing and my soul is hungry for spiritual growth. All the angels in my life have gathered and encouraged me to write, and do it now. The words flow from my heart and the deepest places of my soul. I will share excerpts from each new chapter in the coming weeks and months.

I want to engage my friends and colleagues while writing this profoundly touching journey of love and healing for my family. I published my first memoir, Reconciliation, a Son’s Story in 2011 and launched my website Children and Families in Life After Trauma at the same time.

Please forward your comments of support and feedback to me… stevesparks.associates@survivethriveptsd.org

My healing journey has indeed entered a spiritual phase now that I feel truly safe. A gift of the spirit life at this time of my life draws me closer to God. I never felt peace of mind until now. It’s a deep feeling in my soul that moves me to a more peaceful place.

“It was 30 years ago, when my soul first spoke to me with a harsh but firm nudge, a confident whisper, “this ain’t working duude, find God. Go find your soul. You are worthy of grace. You can go home now with your family. Go home dude! GO HOME!” So, with the faith and strength of my family and a higher power, the journey of healing begins in the Icicle Valley in 1990. Little did I know then what a very hard road of both a reconciliation of a painful past and finally, forgiveness. Forgiveness of myself first and the capacity to find my soul would come, but not without hard lessons of love and gifts from a God I didn’t know yet…

I believe it was here in this truly heavenly valley when I felt God’s presence for the very first time. Native Americans, who lived in Icicle Valley long before the white man arrived, believed in the healing spirits of the Icicle Valley. All of us felt closer to God. I felt safe.. We could be safe as a family now.”

From the right, Sarah, Judy, Steve and our beloved Mocha at the Wenatchee River near Leavenworth Wa fall 1997…

stevesparks.associates@survivethriveptsd.org